we all have relations in our life....infact, our social life is a complete and complex cobweb of relation...which has various shades in it...some of the relations are there because we love them, like to share our happiness, success with them...and some are there which is also called bond of hatred....yes when we hate a person i belive we are into a relation...we can say that we dont have a relation when his/her being there or his/her absence means nothing to us.

Relations are influenced by social, economic, cultural factors....(there may be more factors), they are also influenced by our priorities, and way of reciprocation.....but what happens when we feel our self entangled in the cobweb? what happens when we feel a burning desire to express ourself loud and clear but we realized we have lost the mode of communication.??? ....what happens when we want to react in a particular way but are expected to do the opposite??

I was supposed to take some important decisions...which would effect many people around me...and my relation with them...so I decided to take a lonely vacation...during which I may decided what is to be done...well actually a way to delay the decision which i knew i was going to take. It was then when I saw her....again...I had been there...when a decision which actually wasnt her was chosen by her..she chose bitterness...because she wanted her near and dear ones happy...but now whn I met her, I saw what it had done to her....it had simply made her empty...her eyes have lost the glitter that used to be there...there was no genuine smile on her lips...Oh yes she is still social....very social....but somthing has changed her...she is bitter inside....even those who used to be her close ones could not save themselves from her bitterness.

when we went out for a walk on the beach....just the two of us...she kept walking besides me without speaking....after sometimes i managed to say....you have changed....she kept walking...without a word...as if she wanted to communicate through silence....once when we sat down and were gazing at the sunset...she said....dont decide ever to react in a way because others want u to do so....specially in cases when u know the individual decision of urs is the correct and right decision and if u listen to others than u would be wrong...nothing could damage you more than that because...if can lie to everyone...to the world but not to ur self...do things that convince u as right things...otherwise u would turn into me...an emptyness.....you might take a decision which would suit ur near and dear one but if u cant satisfy the conscience of yours, u will never be in peace again.....never shall you respect your self again....and nothing can hurt more than that...you will perish the way i am perishing slowly and slowly you will loose your identity....I looked at her....could actually see her getting  fade slowly....as if she was vanishing in the thin air...slowly as the sun fully settelled down in the west...I could no longer c her....she wasnt there...i choked ....felt scared............I screamed and woke up......yes it was a dream.....a nightmare if u wish to call it so....but ever since that day I have been afraid of her...I try to avoid darkens...refuse to do things which cast even a little shadow in might thought process..do u know who that person was....none other than my shadow...